We went to the vet today. I was pretty worried cuz she still isn't eating very much. They weighed her and she's lost 2lbs almost exactly in the 3 weeks since we first took her in. She's @ 6.8lbs. I'm sure before this she was close to 10lbs if not a little more. She's so skinny it scares me. Other than that nothing much to report. They gave us a refill on the prednosolone (steroid) but not the lasix cuz the fluid is outside her lungs. That scares me. Kevin doesn't want to give her meds if they aren't doing anything, but i say what if it is helping? So we're going to only go without the lasix for a couple days and see if anything changes. Even that's too long for me, but i couldn't convince Kevin otherwise. He did promose tho if i thought she was getting worse in the slightest we'd go up to refill her neds ASAP. They also gave us an appetite stimulant pill for her. The vet wasn't really very helpful. She pretty much gave us no hope. She did tell us we could give her people food as long as we heat it up and to try babyfood (which JJenn already suggested to me) And she said she could tell there was fluid in her chest still. She tried to listen to her breathing and heartbeat and it was all muffled. :-(

I was crying at the end of the exam. And then Kevin asked how much it would be to put her to sleep if we had to ($40 if we wanted the body...which we do...i will want to bury her in the backyard) which totally destroyed me. I think tho if we can get her to eat she'll be better. She's just lethargic around the house is all. She still comes when we call and follows us around (but not as closely as she did before when she was dying) I try not to think about it but at the same time I'm preparing myself for her passing.

My mom took me to dinner today and when she came over she said she found a great xmas present for all the kitties (we all have one, me, my sis and my bro) and I told her she might not be around @ xmas and she just doesn't understand. She's like "why keep her around if you know she's dying?" and I have to hold my tongue. She still doesn't know how much we spent to save her life (altho some of it was refunded to us cuz they didn't run the tests they were supposed to...a substantial amount actually...it paid for her visit and meds today and left some over for next time) Then she's like "well if she's not around you'll get another kitty right?" and we will....just not right away. We're pretty much set on getting another torty (like Kikyo) They have so much personality they're great!

And now I'm going to try and post some Kikyo piccies (computer willing)....